A Silent Song

Today -
I feel like that Neil Diamond song
Wondering where I belong

A certain emptiness
In my head
Someone sings "I am, I said"

This town is quite fine
I had a fabulous time
But deep inside …
There are memories of a distant valley
I used to call home

My old mother
Who used to welcome me with a smile
Now that she is gone
For whom shall I come?

Words of my father:
“Serve the country in any form you can”
Still echo in my ears
A debt we all have to pay
Someday

Here I am
Stuck in a web created by my own mind
Hoping to solve the problems of mankind
The duel of “for” and “against”
A heart full of angst
Looking for reasons and meanings

I think I need a little inspiration
Maybe a little push
To take that decisive turn
Embark on a journey of no return

Where is my country?
But, what is “mine”?
Where do I belong?
But, who am “I”?
What are these feelings?
I am trying to understand

A certain emptiness
Tormenting me inside
A silent song
Someone humming inside

I lay awake
While the world eats and sleeps
I remember the days
That have now gone by

Whatever given, now taken away
I stand here empty handed
And watch it all drift away

Everything changes
Nothing remains
All phenomenons empty of nature
Oh, the irony of the Maker!

My meditation
Just a moment’s peace
Within my mind’s ocean
Particles of thoughts floating in a sun’s ray

“Are you lost?” someone asked
“Wait,” I heard myself say
“What if I am about to find myself”

Why this craving to belong?
When you know you and this universe is just one
What am I searching for?
When there is nothing to find
Where to go?
When everything within